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not my x-ray … but pretty much what happened in both arms.

On June 10th I went out for a run. The first run in almost a year. Looping back around to descend the hill I had previously (huffing and puffingly) climbed, I tripped … fell … and broke both elbows (bilateral radial head fracture).

Five week and a half later and I’m at the limit of my patience. I just want to be WELL already. The list of things I can do is still much longer than the list of things I can’t, but the “can’ts” are feeling heavier and heavier. I want to be able to push myself to seated from lying down or from seated to standing. I want to swim, drive a car, play volleyball and tennis. I want to be able to carry things that weigh more than 2 lbs.

The most challenging thing has been not being able to teach or practice yoga. Five weeks and counting … and my practice has been entirely “off the mat”.

My practice is no longer about downdog and getting into crow. Right now it’s about acknowledging these feelings of frustration, anger and self-pity. It’s acknowledging the few extra pounds that have appeared on my body in the last month and a half. It’s not a fun or easy practice. It’s pretty much sitting in sh*t and just trying to breathe. It’s hard and it sucks.

But I will get better. I will heal. Someday I’ll be back to falling on my face in crow. Someday I’ll stick the damn pose. Someday I’ll be able to swim and carry heavy bags and drive and move my body around the way I want. It will happen.

Patience is a virtue … but sometimes it really bites.


Thank You

I want to write a thank you letter to the world. In the past few days/weeks, the outpouring of love and support has made this unexpected injury and “time out” a gift rather than a nightmare.

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Happy 31st!

30 was an incredible, awesome, wonderful year!

And, as my horoscope from the other days leads  me to believe, 31 is going to be even better!

Happy birthday, me!

The Toaster

I think everyone has that one kitchen appliance that they can’t live without: mixer, blender, microwave … For me it’s a toaster. No matter where I’ve lived, I HAVE to have a toaster. Before any other appliance, a toaster was the most necessary item in my kitchen. (I’m talking traditional toaster, not a toaster oven. I hate those and have an irrational fear that even letting one near my house will cause  spontaneous combustion. Irrational, I know.)

About a month ago, our little $9.00 toaster from Target died.

In abject panic, my immediate thought was to run out and buy a new one.  What was I going to do without my toaster???  Luckily, not having a car makes it tough to dash out and buy things. So I paused … and I remembered that I has just discovered the over broiler.  Unlike previous ovens, this one’s a bottom drawer that just so happens to be the perfect size and height for making toast!

Good-bye, toaster!  Hello, broiler!

One less gadget to store (in a kitchen with 2.5′ of counter space that’s awesome!) and the broiler is actually faster than the old toaster.  I’m still learning how to gauge time so I don’t end up with burned toast, but I think I’m in love.

Funny how, with a breath and some ingenuity, what seems like a problem turns into a wonderful new experience!

2012: A Year of Flight

2011 was an incredible year. I learned so much, explored new places and ideas, and put down some new roots. I met a few of my goals, though not all, as life likes to throw those funny curve balls.

I explored more styles of yoga and attend some wonderful classes and workshops.  I am in better control of my finances with an emergency fund, a travel fund and a plan to pay off student debt.  Career goals were tougher, but I remain positive in the face of transition. As for fitness/wellness, I finished my first 5K, though not in under 30  minutes, and learned that I can run!

When thinking of my goals and resolutions for 2012,  I realized my yoga goals make a pretty awesome intention for the entire year. They all have one thing in common: FLIGHT.  In 2012 I want to figure out crow (bakasana) and headstand (sirsasana). Both poses require learning to lift off the ground and find flight and balance in space.  Both poses require a solid foundation and a trust that even if the foundation shifts, you can take a breath and try again. Sounds like a perfect theme for 2012 to me!

Thus, 2012 is THE YEAR OF FLIGHT.

– Crow Pose: figure it out, get into it, and hold it for 3-5 breaths
– Sirsasana: figure it out, get into it, wall support is totally ok
– Continue to invest in my practice and my teaching by attending workshops and classes
– Commit to a home practice and complete a 30 day “home practice” challenge to set the habit

– Pay off 1/3 of my student debt by 12/31/2011
– Continue to build the travel fund (possible goal: Thailand in 20??)
– Become a more savvy budgeter (this includes actually creating a budget and having a “come to Jesus” with shopping)

– Stay employed
– Own my new responsibilities and role in the library. This is a year for me to shine and become a resource and local expert for my colleagues

– Continue to eat healthy, happily and safely (I really like that goal.)
– Work with a personal trainer to build a habit out of weight training and cardio

– read more poetry and non-fiction
– be kinder to myself (positive self-talk and belief)
– learn to appreciate black coffee
– wear mascara 2 or less days a week

What are your goals and resolutions for 2012?

A Years Worth of Make Up

I bookmarked this a while back for future blogging.  It’s a fascinating and slightly horrifying video of a woman getting an entire years worth of make up put on it one day.

Now, I don’t know too  many people who actually USE those spray thingers, but  I have seen them in action at Sephora (side note: are we REALLY air brushing ourselves now?  Really ladies??)  So despite the method, which I imagine was just a little easier and probably what the professionals are using these days, this poor woman gets a whole lot of make up glopped on her.

It makes you think, doesn’t it…  How much make up do we wear?  How much is seeping into our skin?  How much gets left behind when we wash our face?  Yuck!

If you’re trying to be more conscious about products, a great resource is EWG’s Skin Deep Cosmetics Database.  It’s a online site where you can look up what’s in all those products on your shelf and find out what’s good and what’s not so good.  Each product gets a safety rating for easy decision making.

What do you wear for makeup?  Any?  A little? A lot? Are you trying to make any changes in your products? I’m still on the hunt for the perfect anti-perspirant/deodorant.

How to Lie With Statistics

One of the more amusing titles in my library is How to Lie With Statistics.  It has a dull, yellow, library binding with black typeface.  Not pretty, but endlessly amusing … much like statistics themselves.

I often find myself by looking at the stats for this blog.  I find it fascinating how posts that I wrote years ago will resurface.  I wonder “what’s the story there? Why, all of a sudden, did 75 people this past week want to read about my search for the perfect deodorant, or read a rant about sizism in yoga clothes?”

Sometimes I make up my own stories about my statistics.  Sometimes I do the digging and mine WordPress’ stats function to find out where people came from, what search terms they used, and how long they lingered.

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