not my x-ray … but pretty much what happened in both arms.
On June 10th I went out for a run. The first run in almost a year. Looping back around to descend the hill I had previously (huffing and puffingly) climbed, I tripped … fell … and broke both elbows (bilateral radial head fracture).
Five week and a half later and I’m at the limit of my patience. I just want to be WELL already. The list of things I can do is still much longer than the list of things I can’t, but the “can’ts” are feeling heavier and heavier. I want to be able to push myself to seated from lying down or from seated to standing. I want to swim, drive a car, play volleyball and tennis. I want to be able to carry things that weigh more than 2 lbs.
The most challenging thing has been not being able to teach or practice yoga. Five weeks and counting … and my practice has been entirely “off the mat”.
My practice is no longer about downdog and getting into crow. Right now it’s about acknowledging these feelings of frustration, anger and self-pity. It’s acknowledging the few extra pounds that have appeared on my body in the last month and a half. It’s not a fun or easy practice. It’s pretty much sitting in sh*t and just trying to breathe. It’s hard and it sucks.
But I will get better. I will heal. Someday I’ll be back to falling on my face in crow. Someday I’ll stick the damn pose. Someday I’ll be able to swim and carry heavy bags and drive and move my body around the way I want. It will happen.
Patience is a virtue … but sometimes it really bites.
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Tagged patience, random
30 was an incredible, awesome, wonderful year!
And, as my horoscope from the other days leads me to believe, 31 is going to be even better!
Happy birthday, me!
I think everyone has that one kitchen appliance that they can’t live without: mixer, blender, microwave … For me it’s a toaster. No matter where I’ve lived, I HAVE to have a toaster. Before any other appliance, a toaster was the most necessary item in my kitchen. (I’m talking traditional toaster, not a toaster oven. I hate those and have an irrational fear that even letting one near my house will cause spontaneous combustion. Irrational, I know.)
About a month ago, our little $9.00 toaster from Target died.
In abject panic, my immediate thought was to run out and buy a new one. What was I going to do without my toaster??? Luckily, not having a car makes it tough to dash out and buy things. So I paused … and I remembered that I has just discovered the over broiler. Unlike previous ovens, this one’s a bottom drawer that just so happens to be the perfect size and height for making toast!
Good-bye, toaster! Hello, broiler!
One less gadget to store (in a kitchen with 2.5′ of counter space that’s awesome!) and the broiler is actually faster than the old toaster. I’m still learning how to gauge time so I don’t end up with burned toast, but I think I’m in love.
Funny how, with a breath and some ingenuity, what seems like a problem turns into a wonderful new experience!
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Tagged funny, random, toast
I bookmarked this a while back for future blogging. It’s a fascinating and slightly horrifying video of a woman getting an entire years worth of make up put on it one day.
Now, I don’t know too many people who actually USE those spray thingers, but I have seen them in action at Sephora (side note: are we REALLY air brushing ourselves now? Really ladies??) So despite the method, which I imagine was just a little easier and probably what the professionals are using these days, this poor woman gets a whole lot of make up glopped on her.
It makes you think, doesn’t it… How much make up do we wear? How much is seeping into our skin? How much gets left behind when we wash our face? Yuck!
If you’re trying to be more conscious about products, a great resource is EWG’s Skin Deep Cosmetics Database. It’s a online site where you can look up what’s in all those products on your shelf and find out what’s good and what’s not so good. Each product gets a safety rating for easy decision making.
What do you wear for makeup? Any? A little? A lot? Are you trying to make any changes in your products? I’m still on the hunt for the perfect anti-perspirant/deodorant.
One of the more amusing titles in my library is How to Lie With Statistics. It has a dull, yellow, library binding with black typeface. Not pretty, but endlessly amusing … much like statistics themselves.
I often find myself by looking at the stats for this blog. I find it fascinating how posts that I wrote years ago will resurface. I wonder “what’s the story there? Why, all of a sudden, did 75 people this past week want to read about my search for the perfect deodorant, or read a rant about sizism in yoga clothes?”
Sometimes I make up my own stories about my statistics. Sometimes I do the digging and mine WordPress’ stats function to find out where people came from, what search terms they used, and how long they lingered.
Making: grocery lists, to-do lists
Cooking: pesto pizza and my own breakfast bars
Drinking: Republic of Tea’s Raw Green Bush Tea in Orange and Red Carrot
Reading: The Walking Dead, Book 3 and Light on Life by BKS Iyengar (zombies+yogis = zombigis?)
Wanting: more time to do/practice/teach/assist yoga
Looking: forward to vacation in two weeks
Playing: Plants vs Zombies (apparently I have a zombie thing…)
Wasting: time with the above
Wishing: on stars and eyelashes
Enjoying: the ability to cook good food for the people I love
Waiting: for sunny, warm days
Liking: the new yoga music suggested by Sandy
Wondering: how I will ever have enough time to do the things I love
Hoping: for the future
Marvelling: at the universes’ ability to put people and experiences into my life just when I need it most
Needing: a little more time
Smelling: rain in the air. Smells like damp earth
Wearing: bare legs for the first time since October!
Following: Nancy Pearl on Twitter. Not sure why that took me so long
Noticing: how much greater my confidence is since the recent workshop
Knowing: that I have everything I need to not only survive, but thrive
Thinking: about what I want to do with my life and my talents
Bookmarking: recipes — always on the hunt for something new and healthy and delicious
Opening: my eyes to what I really want in life
Giggling: over Hyperbole & A Half
Feeling: happy, content and grateful
Today’s post inspired by my dear friend Olivia. Please check out Olivia’s blog, The Sweetest Reasons.
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Tagged life, random, Yoga
Edith Shain, the woman famous for The Best Kiss EVER photo taken on VJ Day, died today at the age of 91.
What’s been your best kiss?
And while we’re thinking about kissing, a post from the Smart Bitches asks readers what their favorite kissing from literature?
So if you’d rather not share your very personal Best Kiss, what’s the best kiss from a book or a movie? What makes it The Best?